"The" one.

Choosing a specialty is like finding the one person you want to spend the rest of your life with...at least I consider it with as much importance. It will dictate your career, lifestyle and opportunities. It will send your life in a certain direction ... surgery versus family medicine will make a difference. It is not just about deciding whether to be a doctor because that was an easy decision, it is now time to really define the rest of my life.

Like I have mentioned before, the follow up question I always get to "what do you do?" is "what kind of doctor do you want to become?"

As  I have always had a passion for surgery, I have been going back and forth on it being my top choice because I am also trying to consider the lifestyle I want to lead further down the road, thatis, one of balance (traveling, keeping active, research, family etc.) Should I choose something I am truly passionate about or a path that would guarantee me more free time away from the hospital? Is there a way to do both?

In the last few days I've had the opportunity to scrub in on a short surgical procedure for one of the patients I was following on the internal medicine floor. I am enjoying the internal medicine rotation, however in the past month and a half I have spent in it I have to confess that I have never been so excited to come back to the hospital (after a full 12 hour shift, mind you) to scrub in for that procedure! It was exhilarating and inspiring...I got those butterflies in my stomach and I couldn't wipe the smile off of my face, even if it was after an 18 hour day. It made me think why not do both? Why can't it be both? I have worked hard at becoming a doctor thus far and chose to take this path with no reservations - which does come with sacrifices - so should I settle for something I would like or something I would love? I figure if I am loving what I do, I can (eventually) take charge and make time for how I want to live my life as well... it might take a while before I am able to reach that point in my career but wouldn't it be worth it?
I don't yet have the answer yet but I thought I would share my thoughts and would love to hear some feedback from you!